林晨将布重新盖上,声音冷得像冰,“就像你明知近亲成婚是绝路,却还在骗自己是为了‘情义’。”
LinChencoveredthecarvingagain,hisvoicecoldasice.“Justlikeyouknowclosekinmarriageisadeadend,yetlietoyourselfitisforloyaltyandaffection.”
二、科学是诛心的刀
李寻欢想反驳,可喉咙像是被堵住了。
LiXunhuantriedtorefute,buthisthroatfeltblocked.
林晨将一本泛黄的《江北临江县志》推到他面前,手指重重地点在其中一行,那墨字仿佛带着血:
LinChenpushedayellowedJiangbeiLinjiangCountyChronicleinfrontofhim,pointinghardatoneline,theinkcharactersasifstainedwithblood:
“三代血亲,子嗣痴傻、残疾者,十之六七。”
“Amongthird-degreebloodrelatives,sixorsevenoutoftenchildrenarebornfeeble-minded,crippled,orstillborn.”
“二弟,你看清楚。”林晨的声音不带一丝感情,“江南云州苏姓人家,表兄妹成婚,连生三子。”
“Lookclearly,littlebrother.”LinChen’svoiceshowednoemotion.“TheSufamilyofYunzhouinthesouth:cousinsmarried,andhadthreesons.”
长子三岁夭折,次子生来痴傻,二十余岁仍如三岁孩童。
Theeldestdiedattheageofthree.Thesecondwasbornfeeble-minded,stilllikeatoddlerinhistwenties.
唯有幼子勉强健全,却也体弱多病,常年汤药不断。
Onlytheyoungestwasbarelyhealthy,yetweakandsickly,dependentonmedicineallyearround.
李寻欢看着那些触目惊心的文字,胃里一阵翻江倒海。
LiXunhuan’sstomachchurnedashereadthoseshockingwords.
他仿佛看见无数个生来就口眼歪斜、手脚畸形的孩童,正对着他无声地嘲笑。
Heseemedtoseecountlesschildrenbornwithdistortedfacesanddeformedlimbs,silentlymockinghim.
那不是别人的孩子,那是诗音的孩子,那是……他的孩子。
Theywerenotstrangers.TheywereShiyin’schildren.Theywere…hischildren.
“不……不可能……”李寻欢喃喃自语,整个人都在剧烈颤抖,手背上的青筋暴起。
“No…impossible…”LiXunhuanmuttered,tremblingviolently,veinsbulgingonthebackofhishands.
“没有什么不可能。”林晨冷冷道,“天道有常,万物有度。”
“Nothingisimpossible,”LinChensaidcoldly.“Heavenhasitslaws,andallthingshavetheirlimits.”
血缘过近,如同良田连作,地力耗尽,所产自然不良。
Toocloseabloodrelationislikeoverfarmingfertileland;thesoilisexhausted,andtheharvestnaturallyfails.
你以为你是在成全‘情义’,其实你是在谋杀她的后半生,谋杀她孩子的未来。
Youthinkyouarefulfillingloyaltyandlove,butintruth,youareruiningherwholelifeandmurderingherchildren’sfuture.
“哐当——”
Crash—!
李寻欢手边的茶盏摔在地上,四分五裂。
TheteacupbesideLiXunhuanfelltothegroundandshattered.
他猛地站起身,踉跄后退两步,扶住书架才站稳。
Hestoodupabruptly,staggeredbacktwosteps,andsteadiedhimselfonlybyholdingthehelf.
“我从未想过这些……我从未……”他的声音嘶哑,仿佛喉咙里吞了一把沙砾。
“Ineverthoughtaboutthis…Inever…”Hisvoicewashoarse,asifhehadswallowedgravel.
“所以,我来与你说。”林晨看着他,目光如炬,“二弟若真为诗音着想,就该明白,有些爱,是放手;有些痛,是成全。”
“ThatiswhyIamtellingyou.”LinChenlookedathimwithsharpeyes.“IfyoutrulycareforShiyin,youmustunderstand:somelovemeanslettinggo;somepainmeanssettingherfree.”
李寻欢闭上眼睛,深深吸了口气,再睁开时,眼中满是血丝与死灰般的绝望。
LiXunhuanclosedhiseyesandtookadeepbreath.Whenheopenedthemagain,hiseyeswerebloodshot,filledwithash-likedespair.
“原来……不是我不愿,是……我不能。”他苦笑一声,那笑容比哭还难看,“我竟成了那个会害了她的人。”
“So…itisnotthatIwillnot.ItisthatIcannot.”Hesmiledbitterly,asmileuglierthancrying.“Ihavebecometheonewhowouldhurther.”